christiana04’s Blog

I wake up to the bright sun shining through our hotel window. My mom asked where we wanted to go for breakfast, I answered that I didn’t care. We wanted to hurry up and eat so that we could get over to my grandma’s to see my daddy since he was more alert in the morning’s. We got ready and started to drive around looking for places that sounded good to eat. We finally found denny’s at the other side of town. We were eating pretty fast and talking amongst our selves and didn’t hear the cell phone ring. When we got into the car my mom looked at her phone and had a missed call and a voice mail from my uncle Juan. She checked the voice mail than told my grandma, my moms mom that my uncle wanted her to call him back but to make sure it was my grandma. So my grandma called him back, and said that my uncle told her he didn’t do good during the night and that the hospice people said he probably wouldn’t make it past 2 or 3. I started bawling and felt so scared, and lost. The drive to my grandmas felt like forever. As we pulled up my uncle came running out with my grandma my dads mom. They were crying and my uncle told me that he had told my dad to hang on, that i was on my way and that I loved him! We went into his room and he was laying there pale, and basically in a minor coma. I was shaking and just wanted to run away. My mom asked if i wanted to hug him or touch him and say goodbye. I said no cause he didn’t look like himself and it scared me. My mom grabbed his arm and said “Ruben, Christiana’s here, she loves you so much!” Than the worst thing possible at the time happened. He took his last breath. I remember losing it and running out of the room crying more than ever. People were hugging me and trying to make me feel better. Soon the morgue people came and put him on a stretcher and wheeled him out. It was the worst thing that i could have seen at age 11. My daddy under a black blanket. That day was so exhausting and the worst day of my life. The next day was his birthday and so many people brought us food and flowers and cards. It was different. My daddy was cremated and my grandma gave me something i will have forever. When I got home she sent me a heart locket with a picture of him on one side and some of his ashes in the other side. Looking back being in the room during his last breath was the best thing that came out of that day. I know that he waited for me and i couldn’t be happier. July 21st 2008 I set 3 balloons in the sky with my grandma, mom, and a family friend. About 3 minutes later Patty goes “Christiana did you see that star appear in the sky?” I said no and looked up and saw one bright shining star appear. I will always know that was him saying he got my balloons. She also made a cool statement. She told me that the 3 balloons i sent up were kinda like the past the present and the future. I will never forget that.